Ward Bones

Hi,

Here I am burned to a crisp, we went to La Jolla Shores yesterday and had a great time.  I forgot how much I love the beach.  I played some accoustic songs for a very lovely counselor here who is very bright and articulate, sharp, and she she was very impressed.  I’m thinking I may record all the accoustic songs I play for the next album.  I’ve been back to my more serious meditation regimine.  I feel better.  It’s really nice to accomplish something and have your own integrety.

I’d been struggling with a higher power since I sobered up.  I always used to fall back on Jesus when things got rough but now I’m beginning to truly have faith in the power of Buddha Nature.  In fact, I think I’ll go pray.

gassho,

Ward

Hey, everybody.

Thanks to everyone still tuning in while I went through some rough times…  I’m sober now and feeling pretty good.  Moved to San Diego (which is pretty sweet) and got into a program to get myself together.  I’m looking forward to the next recording project.  Hope you’ll all stick with me.

Thanks again,

Ward

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I can’t seem to motivate myself to meditate either today or yesterday.  I’m called to it, need it and would feel better if I did but I can’t seem to “Just Do It”.  I realize that I justify myself by some people’s opinion that one shouldn’t sit when they don’t want to but that has to be bunk.  I would imagine my Zen priest at the center must often feel that he doesn’t want to sit, yet there he is, four hours a day.

Ward

Alright, I’m blogging, already…  What do you want to know about me?  I’m schizophrenic and can’t hold a job.  A Pagen/Buddhist who loves Jesus.  I’m male, attractive, 6′0”, but a little bit chubby.  I gave all my music equipment to my mom and probably won’t be producing another album for a year or so.  I don’t have any friends at all.  I live under federal aid for schizophrenics with a small stypend and insurance.  I currently have Pink Eye.  I occasionally get lucky with a lady from the internet but not for long.  Most people hate me or are afraid of me both due to my illness.

I love this world and everybody in it.  I have meditated on it quite a lot and I would walk the dead earth after civilization had past for eternity to know peace in my lifetime.

I am an ordained minister of a multifaith church and can legally marry, bury and baptise.  Write me if you need me:

crow.feather@live.com

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http://members.cox.net/koistone

Blessings and gassho,

Ward